Anyone who knows me will know that I'm basically a gossip whore- I mean not about my friends, but I keep myself updated with lots of news about celebrities (ahh the joys of freetime). I usually surf the lj comm, ohnotheydidnt and it saddens me to hear that for the 5th time in the span of just 3 months that a Brazilian model passed away due to an eating disorder >__<

"Galvao Vieira, who was 1.70 meters tall [about 5' 7"] and weighed about 38 kilograms [about 84 lbs.] was in the Miguel Couto hospital for over a month, after having been in three other public hospitals and no one being able to diagnose the disease. And no, it wasn't in some small town in Brazil, it was Rio de Janeiro. According to 20 Minutos, the victim's parents say that she was so weak that she was unable to climb the stairs to her school."


This girl was 14 years old. 5'7" AND 38 kg?? I'm like 4'9" and I weight around 55 kg (yeah yeah fatty) It's just unbelievably sad because she could have accomplished so much but she succumbed to the want of a thin image. It's sad that we live in a world where beauty is counted by calories and not confidence or one's personality. It's sad, but it won't go away.. but I can understand what the girl went through; I had an eating disorder when I was 9 years old- it was triggered by me being molested and it just festered on when I saw tv with skinny thin girls which made me really insecure. I binged and purged- for 3 months I would eat then stick a finger inside of my throat and vomit what I ate because I felt guilty for eating, felt fat, and so forth.

I realise that I'll never be stick thin or whatever; so I try to keep my body fit, try to eat healthy, go exercising- I'm pass the stage where I once ate tissue dipped in orange juice just to keep me full (yeah, I did that when I was 12). It's hard though to accept my curvy voluptuous body the way it is when you heard already stick thin celebrities like Jessica Alba saying that she hates her curves (wtf, they're like fucking nonexistent). I wear an m, my waist is size 26-27, I inherit my hips from my mother with a size of 34", my bust is a size 32/34C and I'll never be a skinny assed twig. Most of times, yes I'm kinda happy because I have curves but sometimes I feel so so fat.

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And onto happy news, yayy!! Scottish actor Alan Cumming married illustrator Grant Shaffer in a civil ceremony outside London over the weekend, the actor's spokeswoman, Bianca Bianconi, said Tuesday. Waaahhh xxx306 I remember the days when she used to obsess over the blue X-men guy- the German teleporting mutant...